This essay was born on an evening hike with Blake. Wasn’t planning to go. Felt down. Blake found his leash and brought it to me in his mouth. It was so cute, that I could not refuse. I dictated my thoughts to Siri, as I walked through the forest. I…

To be a man of honour. To be a man of code. To be a man. What is masculine? What is feminine? I don’t believe in a 50/50 split in a relationship. Gender equality is a myth. Yes, women can do many difficult things. My mother shoots an AK-47 and…

You can’t understand what you are without first understanding what you are not. You determine who you are through what you are not. Setbacks and conflicts are given to us as a guidance tool to help us to get to whom we really are. I don’t want to be a…

I used to think that the most important thing in a man’s life is his job, his craft, and his career. I used to believe that self-actualization comes first, above everything else. I was wrong. Job IS very important, however only until you reach a certain level of income. In…

Super cold race. The swimming part was an absolute mess. About 60 people in my age group started together. I don’t remember wrestling in water to be so bad. Several times I got hit in the head so bad that I saw stars. Could do a proper stroke because every…

Things don’t seem to work out. In the past month of April, over the course of three weeks I applied to 203 jobs. I got rejected 203 times. Not a very big deal. Prior to that, in 2021, I heard “No” 346 times. Outside of many things I did to…

At birth, everybody gets a different meat suit. Some are tall and strong. Some are weak, with inborn defects. Nature is cruel. Some people get pretty faces, others asymmetric. Some people get white hair and blue eyes; other folks are red-haired with green eyes. We don’t get to pick our…